It's a little after 5 a.m. as I write this. I've been up since 4:30. It's an experiment I'm trying. Until now, I haven't told anyone about it, not even my husband. That's partly because he's in a super busy phase right now and partly because he can only hear about so many experiments at one time.
I'm a chronic life experimenter.
For a long time, I've been embarrassed about that. It might seem self-help-y. It might seem obsessive. I might fail or stop doing something that I was doing for a while, and I might seem flighty. It might seem like I'm never satisfied or I don't like myself or something.
Little by little, I'm letting go of all that "it might seem." And actually, I am kind of self-help-y, and I like to be obsessed with things.
So I'm borrowing from the excellent David at Raptitude, who tracks his life experiments at his website.
Here's my new experiments log in its infancy. I'm so excited.
One of these very experiments is the main reason I'm trying this talking-about-my-experiments-out-loud thing. See, last year, I experimented with writing every day for 20 minutes no matter what. It was a crazy huge success in about a zillion ways. (I'll tell you more about that another time.) But then, later in the year, I added an exercise experiment. It was also a success, BUT I mostly quit writing because I couldn't figure out how to fit in both. That (along with a larger-than-anticipated client list) is why you haven't seen a post from me in a very long while.
And the whole time I was failing to fit everything in, I was wanting to write to you all about all of it. So, I'm trying again. Experimenting with experiments.
Maybe you're not an experimenter and self-help makes you barf, but you'd kind of like to follow along so you can steal stuff that works. Maybe you ARE an experimenter, and you'd love to try things out along with me and compare notes. Or maybe you're somewhere in between, and you just like reading that someone else is struggling with getting up in the morning or laundry or balancing creativity + day job + parenting or prioritizing the things they value. Because it reminds you that you are not alone.
Which brings me to this: It turns out the thing I like best about writing here at onebrokenteapot is the same thing I like best about making plays. It's putting something out in the world that reminds us all that we are not alone.
I still believe in minimalism. I'm still trying to find my way as an art-maker, mama, leader, and income-producer. I'm still interested, from way back, in the way ritual shows up in our lives. I'm still interested, since forever, in people and their stories.
Deeper than all that, I'm most interested in our shared humanity.
I'm interested in the fact that I love you. And you are not alone.
It's so good to see you again.
Love from Cheryl