installment two || resilience
i fail a lot with this baby. i do something that i hope will make her laugh, and she turns her head to stare at a blank, beige wall beside me. i make a noise that i think will elicit a smile, and her bottom lip quivers. i put on my very best song and dance show complete with rump-shaking and wacky face-making, and she bursts into tears. with a baby, you can fail every day, 100 times a day like this, but you get back in there. you try again. maybe because the reward is so great. maybe because you have no other choice.
in the theatre, i've failed a lot, too. but my resilience hasn't been as great. each time, it takes me a while to get back in there. this baby's got me in resilience training. in theatre, just like with a baby, you try again. because the reward is so great. and because you have no other choice.